I’m so very confused and have decided to let go of what I’m not sure of. It’s that unsettling feeling that I could get hurt that is making me back down. I don’t want to lose myself trying to find someone. I’ll let God bring my soul mate to me because I have no idea what I’m doing. Love is so complicated and messy, I can’t even.
I had the best weekend. I turned 19 yesterday and spent it with my amazing friends and family. It really doesn’t matter what you do or where you go, just as long as it’s with the people you care about most. I could care less about gifts and fancy things. On that note, in a year I’ll be 20! Word!!!
Those dark brown eyes, mysterious at a first glance, but soft and heart awakening soon after. The way you do that half open smile with that squinting laughter. Your smile, I can’t get enough of that welcoming grin. But I’m conflicted with these emotions I’ve let in. Will we be nothing more than this? A friendship, that if I lost, I know I’d miss. I admire who you are, though I know you’ve made mistakes. All I want is a chance to show that I’ve got what it takes.